Half a pound of VX-950, 2000 mikes Pegylated Interferon in 12 weeks

These last few days - I'm absolutely knackered. Dragged myself into work today then copped out about 10am and jumped the 19 bus home from Chelsea to Islington. The relief at escaping the atmosphere of treatment centre early recovery was overwhelming. Tannhauser Overture on the mp3, The Kings Road whizzing past from the upper front seat of the bus then a desultory root in the local charity shop (Christian Aid Blackstock Road) Pretty Flamingo - Manfred Man in original emi sleeve (with an advert for a Morphy Richards Spin drier on the back for 22 and a half guineas) 50pence plus Farewell My Lovely (robert mitchum and charlotte rampling) and The Deer Hunter £1 for both on video. Then blessed bed, shaking and shivering. Sanctuary. Home. And one injection and about 135 tablets to go ie another ounce of protease inhibitor VX and absolutely no sign of the dreaded rash reported by some trial participants. Like the title says I'll have taken 2160 millionths of a gram of interferon by subcutaneous injection and not quite half a pound of VX-950 by oral tablets in a period of 85 days or 12 weeks or 3 months or a season if you will. And thats it. Thats the treatment. Seems strange stripped like that. Massively out of kilter with the anxiety that preceded it. and just now the outcome seems irrelevant. I guess its starting to achieve its true proportions. And i'm starting to see it clear free of all the projections and expectations I've blurred it with. Whatever happens physically - its not going to save me. I'm still going to have to work like everyone else. Sombre thoughts from a flat place.